So I'm back and hopefully in a better frame of mind to keep a blog.
This next post is going to be useful.
It's on ORGANISATION
The word dreaded by many with ADHD (or so I assume :) )
It's horrible, it hurts my brain, but I've managed it.

The key is be OVER organised to REMAIN organised
Yes thats it, my folders look like someone with severe OCD has been unleashed upon them, but their organised and thats the point right?
I started this year thinking I've got to work hard, ive got to be super productive or I will fail every task I've given myself. And I can't STAND failing, it me, I've never done it before. I never WILL!!
So I organised my folders into every different section possible e.g.-modules, practicals, tests, homework, and divided it into different teachers.
Then I made a folder for another project -EPQ, and another for something else im doing and so on.
I then made a timetable of work for my frees at school and for the weekends, and everyevening I spend two hours doing non-school related important stuff and give myself two hours to relax.
It's been a headache, but i've developed a routine, and this I feel will be the most important thing to say.
Establishing a routine requires hard work, but once you've got one sticking to it becomes easier and easier and eventually you find yourself doing things rather than sitting around complaining about everything you've got to do.
:)

 

DO NOT MIX CONCERTA MEDS WITH COFFEE!

Ok so after reading this article on the benefits of Coffee on this (great, don't get me wrong) ADHD blog, I tried drinking a Mocha before school, completely forgetting that I had already taken my concerta meds or maybe just acting on impulse i.e. not thinking it through..BAD IDEA.
I spent the next 7 hours more hyped than I've ever been without any medication AT ALL. I was twitchy, my hand shook uncontrollably, I literally couldn't focus on anything for more than a second (usually I can for at least a minute! >.<) and my heart was going waay too rapidly to feel comfortable. Plus I was growing ever more tense and angry because i couldn't get through to CAMS for any Bleedin advice, what a fat lot of good they are. So in the end I got home and blew a total fuse.

I guess all that therapy and medication must not have been working all so great coz all those suppressed urges to destroy stuff and get mad just came rushing up in one insane burst. I smashed a mug (it literally feels so good to do that), Hurtled my ADHD meds at the wall in their stupid circle container and broke it and sent them flying, Chucked a load of stuff around then put it back again, Burnt paper, Painted a strip of wall with gold paint, made red handprints on my white bedroom wall with paint, cut off a bit of my hair, sprayed water everywhere. Just..virtually any urge I got I just did it. It was mad. I felt so deluded...I screamed and jumped up and down and made a ton of noise (noone was home). Just BANGING ON THE FLOOR. It felt so horrible and so good. Like a massive release but at the same time like It was just a step before something worse..

anyway I'm pretty sure the trip out from the Coffee sent me over, so my piece of advice for today is bloody simple. DO NOT MIX CONCERTA AND COFFEE! EVER.

Hi all.

So I've been absent for ages which probably hasn't helped me get any more followers but i'm back now. I've mostly been absent because I haven't been following my own advice (SHOCK HORROR) but i'm really trying to change. To externalise my confidence and use the wonder that is putty to take out my desire to break stuff :D!
Anyway, it's a new day and a new hair colour and i'm hoping that from now till may i will be kicking butt with getting shit done! Not too optimistic, but miracles can happen..

In regards to my *cough-daily-cough* piece of advice, it's think stuff conciously, I know all too well that having ADHD is like having this wind turbine of thoughts and feelings constantly rushing through you, and it's literally imp--robable to turn it off, without numbing yourself entirely. Therefore I urge you to catch the thoughts, try hard to hold onto them and think about them properly.
It helps.
For me at least.
By this I mean, don't just think 'I like socks' then hold onto that, obviously :P but instead I mean, 'I will work, I will, work' and eventually that mentality should rub off, even if only a little.
Anyway I'm off now to write an essay on the wonder that is the human genome :D -_-
Have fun, stay relatively sane and be proactive (in the most uncheesy sense of the word :S)
Ok so now a creepy, and not so creepy piccy of my pink hair (yes i'm using this blog as a colour log too, sue me...or dont :D)

Exhaustion

If you've got ADHD or are around someone with it then I can pretty much say with about 99.9% certainty that you will have experienced horrid exhaustion at some point.
So how to cope with it?
Well really i'll start with stating the obvious (because obvious doesnt always mean remembered :) )
Then I'll go onto my own different (hopefully) less obvious tactics.
Sleep more!
Eat healthier!
Do more exercise 0_o I knooow, but really it releases endorphins and helps you sleep better counteracting any unhelpful sleepless nights.
And finally try and avoid electronic stuff late at night or early in the morning :)

Now my own added advice.
Baths are great but showers are better in my opinion, hot showers are so much nicer because they keep you clean, you can use tons of shower gel and stuff to make yourself feel all pretty and you dont end up stewing in heat like in a hot bath because you can step aside from a hot shower relatively easily.

Have a lazy day where you do absoloutely nothing, screw all responsibility and just chill.

And finally do something with other people, like watch a film, visit a friend, go swimming. Relax.
:D
Hope some of it helps or at least confirms you're doing the right thing.
Good luck.
believe me I know how sucky exhaustion is (am currently sitting on the sofa with a lemsip and soothers. Stupid colds. )

Recovery

Recovery:A return to a normal state of health, mind, or strength:  The action or process of regaining possession or control of something stolen or lost:

I guess you could say that we recover from something every day by those definitions, in fact you could say you recover from something every hour. Unless of course you do nothing at all for each hour (which I imagine would be quite rare).
Well right now I'm  recovering.

Recently the stresse's of my life have really gotten to me, the frustration ADHD causes me, the life I live at home and above all work. Which I imagine is probably one of the major causes's of stress for many people in today's society.
But seeing as how this is a help blog and not a 'moan about how life drags me down' blog, I suppose I'd better write about how I recovered/ing and not about my recent and painful debacle. (a good word if ever there was one :D)

So firstly I spiralled into a 'I CAN'T FUDGIN DEAL WITH ALL THIS SHIZ (Swearing edited for the purposes of keeping a relatively clean blog)
And really I guess the only thing that kept me going was a piece of advice that i've written a lot about throughout this blog.
'Go back to the beginning, find you're motivation.'
One of my major stresse's was my work and really there were/still are times that I find/found myself thinking 'I just can't see the point' 'I just can't be a**ed with this shiz' but then I'd make myself think long and hard about where I want to be in 5 years.
I suppose a little gem of advice (if you have time) is for you to take a piece of A3 paper or A4 (whatever size you want) and to write down a goal for five years time, it could be ambitious or small or pretty straightforward.

Some examples :
I want to have a good job.
I want to be earning enough money to buy the things i want
I want to be working in -----(insert job of choice here)-----
I want to have moved out
I want to be 'here' (wherever here may be)
I want to be fit

Literally anything, and when you find yourself thinking whats the point?! Look at that sheet of paper (stuck up anywhere, photocopies everywhere, whatever you wanna do) and remind yourself why you have to do what you're doing,
And a second piece of advice,
go where the mood takes you. If you wanna randomly cut up pieces of clothing to customise a top at 12.00 at night, well, you're already up, why the hell not?
And lastly. I cannot stress this enough. People around the people you love, (especially close friend's) Is so unbelievably great and it helps heaps.

And don't worry if you're like I was and haven't found those friend's yet. They'll come believe me, when you least expect it, from the strangest of places :) I used to be so envious of those groups of girls all hanging out whilst I was walking round with my dad, but now I'm one of those girls and you will be too. :D Just be yourself, coz believe me, you don't wanna be friends with people who don't like you for YOU. It sucks, take it from someone who knows :)

Adios, Oyasumi Nasai, Sweet dreams.
:)
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Oh To Darnations Again

This simple little phrase has actually helped me quite a lot.
It is a..lemme get this right...an acrostic to remember a rhyme which is;
One at a Time, heed the Rhyme, Do it all now Avoid the how how's.
Kinda idiotic I know but when it comes to those times where all my motivation has died, I remind myself of it. Ok so my room still gets stupidly messy but at least now it doesn't quite reach the same level it used to, or stay that way for quite as long. In fact today I even put some items around the room away instead of just leaving them there to pile up with the stuff that I won't be quite so good at putting away straightaway.

Plus I'm not kicking my butt into gear to organise all my work BEFORE I start my second AS unit and not after as did for Unit 1, ok so I also have some pretty good motivation i.e. just remember that gut clenching stress not being prepared gave me before my exams and thats the little extra boost I need to get into my room and get organising. So Do it all now, that way when it comes to the end you won't be asking yourself HOW DID I LET THIS ALL HAPPEN? Coz you won't have. Simple as.

On another topic, Stress. Funnily enough I'm probably at the peak of my stress levels right now just as I start the first module in my Unit 2 of AS Psychology-Stress. Hahahaha. How appropiate. It's good though, It means my counsellor and I can have pretty indepth discussions about the subject.
So for anyone who hasen't got a counsellor, stress therapist? Or doesn't do pyschology, here's the advice I was given for if you're severely stressed out.

Deep breathing (ugh I know, painfully boring and annoyingly simple..but try it out. *shrug* it may work for you) I mean when I'm stressed if I take a deep breath it does make thing's a tiny bit better.
Secondly start Yoga, or Pilates or Tai chi or just meditate- all good counterattacks for your overpumped sympathetic system (?)-the system that controls you're fight mechanism, closely related to causing prolonged stress. If you get all sweaty and hot and have a fast heart rate you could be experiencing physical stress. (notice how the symptoms are oddly similar to the effects of exercise? Hence the 'physical' at the beginning.) If you experience that like me, then try out any of these counterattack activities.

Finally write down three good things each day, or three things you are grateful for. They can be absoloutely tiny!!! Ok so my examples for today are;
I came home early from school, I managed to write down some answers in my product design exam even if they were probably wrong and definetly incomplete aaaand, I'm currently drinking a very nice Friji milkshake. See? It can even be 'I got out of bed this morning', 'I can walk' 'I have my sight' Simple things to be grateful for, or 'I got a highscore on my game'.

Apparently I'm lucky because I'm still connected to my inner child and it's a playful type. Which means I get excited about really tiny things. Honestly I don't think adults get excited enough, it's how I've survived. Take pleasure in the little things. I mean I got stupidly excited because my game on my phone has a polar bear character (I love polar bears)
Honestly sometimes my friends ask incredulously 'how are you so excited about that?' Or tell me to 'stop getting so excited about life.'
No, No way, NO WAY. Get excited about LIFE. BELIEVE ME

It's probably the biggest thing thats kept me going. That and the belief that things will always get better...eventually. (Old picture btw :D but it's me studying. @_@  Everyones gotta do it. :( but at least do it with cool hair!!!!! -_- or so I like to think ¬_¬ :P

Exam week

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH!!!
Is not even a fraction of how I feel, the real display would be a lot more terrifying. Some burning cities perhaps, or an exploding volcano. Exams just make me so...terrified. It's like I have to do well and the thought of getting less than an A scares the bejeezers outa me. Plus I have such a horrid long term memory, it seriously just makes me wanna break things. It's like, revise-cool yeah I know this, next day, BLANK. UGH!!!!
And I am seriously the worlds worst procrastinator, I procrastinate on everything, even the things I WANT to do, I mean what the heck?!

Anyway just wanted to update the ol' blog as it's been absent a while. Really the advice I have is just a re-itteration (Correct wording?) of some old advice I posted on here. Take a break. I mean sometimes It's good just to do something polar opposite to everything you've been doing. Nothing to drastically different. (I don't really like change, it confuses me) but say, going swimming.
I had a biology exam yesterday in the morning, then in the afternoon as I'd been revising all week, I decided to just go swimming with some friends. It was good, a nice break doing something I haven't done for what like...2 years?  (swimming with friends I mean, on our own.)

Even though I have chemistry tommorrow, so it's back on the nightmare wagon for today, and it doesn't help when you seem biologically pre-programmed to feel sick every day, every waking minute.

Anyhoo.
Break up the routine! :D
Adios